State of the Apostasy: Year 5

I lost my faith in the LDS church on 02/06/15. Last year I decided to try to do a review of my personal growth outside of the LDS church.

2019 was a whirlwind of a year. This has been a big year for me spiritually. Arguably my most interesting year.

  • My divorce was finalized.
  • I got a good paying job. I was working 80+ hours a week and got burned out and was let go when I asked to only work 50 hours per week
  • I was ordained a Buddhist minister
  • I went to Disney Land
  • I started working for a long-time friend and fellow exmo and long time friend at the same pay and reasonable hours
  • Discovered entheogenic Mormonism, which kicked off a lot of me exploring unorthodox Mormonism
  • I went to concerts that I loved
  • Went to Sam Young’s march and saw a ton of notable folks from the Mormon World
  • Proposed to my girlfriend of 3 years
  • Found out that my mother-in-law’s cancer is back and terminal and has about 4 months left to live

What I’d like to accomplish this year:

  • Marry my fiancĂ©
  • Start “The Unorthodox Mormon Church”, more on this in a couple weeks
  • Help my mother-in-law pass peacefully
  • Keep my head above water and keep going to therapy
  • Start a business (an herbal apothecary)
  • Go to a couple music festivals
  • Be more unapologetically me
  • Learn how to be a good homeowner (fiance is inheriting house)
  • Find more insights through entheogens

Previous years: